Tis my birthday. Yay. I am old, older, but not yet oldest.
Not yay: spent way too much money just trying to live today.
Applied for a job that is close, am not desperate to have, but at least broke the pattern: yay.
Had to spend way too long at the old one: not yay.
Was a bit vulnerable again with The Guy, who I think I have to start calling by his initial, J, because so much of this is about breaking through these layers and barriers and shields, the vagueness of a person. He has a name. He is real, if real far away. Yay.
Had a panic attack (minor-ish) in the car. Not yay. Had my fitbit heart monitor on so I could see how fast it was racing. Not yay, and did, in the short term, make it worse. But informative so…yay?
Made my therapist appointment for a week from Friday. Very, very YAY.
Going to try and do some actual writing tonight. Yay again.