Come a Cropper

By: L.

Apr 01 2016

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Category: self

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+200 story words.

HEY YOU.  I THINK I NEED TO YELL A BIT SO YOU GET ME IN CAPSLOCK TONIGHT, MY DEARS AND MY DARLINGS.  BECAUSE YOU’VE HAD A HECK OF A WEEK AND I KNOW THE REASON THAT YOU LOST YOUR WAY IS BECAUSE YOU COULDN’T BUY FOOD AND SO YOU MADE OBSCURE AND RANDOM LEFTOVERS AND JUST TRIED TO EAT ENOUGH TO FILL THE PIT IN YOUR STOMACH, MOSTLY IN ONE BIG PILE ONLY ONCE A DAY.  AND ALSO YOU FELT STRESSED FROM BEING SICK AND FALLING OFF THE TRACKING WAGON AND EMBARRASSED THAT EVERYTHING WAS SO OUT OF CONTROL THAT YOU DIDN’T WANT TO PUT IT DOWN.   YOU ALSO DIDN’T WANT TO EXERCISE BECAUSE YOU HAD NO ENERGY AND YOU THOUGHT YOU WEREN’T EVEN GETTING 1200 CALORIES SO EXERCISING SEEMED LIKE TRYING TO TAKE ADVANTAGE OF THE FACT THAT YOU WERE POOR AS FUCK AND MAYBE YOUR BODY COULDN’T TAKE THAT STRAIN.  WHEN REALLY, YOU WERE JUST LAZY AND THE LAZY SNOWBALLED INTO THE OLD STORY OF I CAN’T.  IT’S IMPOSSIBLE.  I DID IT BEFORE BUT IT IS IMPOSSIBLE NOW.

RIDICULOUS.  IRRITATING.  WE ARE ON THE BRINK.  THE WEIGHT LOSS HAS BEEN MAINTAINED BUT IF WE DON’T CONTINUE FORWARD WITH THESE GOOD MEASURES, IT WILL GO BACK TO WHAT IT WAS.  THIS BOULDER OF ALL OF THOSE TIMES WE DID GET ON THE BIKE OR TOOK A LONG WALK WILL JUST ROLL BACK DOWN AND CRUSH US.

NOT HAVING IT.  NOT HAVING IT FOR ONE GODDAMNED MOMENT.   SO TOMORROW, WE GET TO PUT THIS MONEY IN THE BANK.  WE GET TO BUY SOME GROCERIES – SOME OF WHICH WILL BE HONEST TO GOODNESS VEGETABLES.  WE’RE GONNA DRINK ICE WATER.  WE MAY EVEN HAVE TACOS.  WE ARE ALSO ON THE BIKE, AND WALKING OR SOME OTHER THING AND LAYING DOWN TO DO THE SITUPS.  THERE IS NO REASON ON EARTH NOT TO GET BACK UP AND START SWINGING.

FLALALALALAH.

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